... . ...She called me a bitch that night
It was at that point I realized that she was a woman who had never been presented with someone who would save her life... . .. . .and stay
She's been used and made useful.. . .... .but had never been amazed, saved and made loved. She had never been in the position to experience a man who would go at war for a cause.. . .. .actual war.. .. . ....the type of war that would actually make or break Life. She has seen men quarrel over purpose less... . ... .purposed less ... .... .tangible highs. . .. . ..purpose only being for someone else's approval.. . .. ..she has experienced men who throw their lives for the badge of street credibility and "real".. . . ..."tough". . ..."boss"... . ....
Take a moment
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Visage the pattern of the lack of authenticity of that road.
She had never been presented with a man who proved his tough through action. .. . . .standing through the storm. Battling the forces.. ... . .of nature. Nature being characters that Life creates to obstruct your plan.. .. . .your story.. . . . .Rage.. . . . .Depression.. . . . .happiness. .. . . .love
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Whose street credibility was being respected for noble action, fair.. . . .living according to his word. .. .. . .
She had never had someone make her feel safe at her most vulnerable stage. Had never been made to feel love. .. . . .fear of losing what she has. . .. . ... Smiling in the morning because she feels home.. . .. . ... .She has never encountered an experience with someone where she just knew everything would be alright. Someone who she didn't need to worry about. .. . . .instead.. . . ..would need to worry about her. Have her best interest in mind. In plan.. . . .in existence at this very moment.
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For that reason... .. . Acknowledging her ignorance of a real man.. . . ... .her ignorance of the existence of someone real and true to their word and action. Their story. Their thoughts.. . .. .
I had realized that because she did not know what to call someone like me. .. . .because she could find no word to explain. No term. . . .... . .she called the only name that she was accustomed to calling someone. Generalistic. A race. A bitch.. . . .. .. ... . Out of frustration that she could find no wrong
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I understood that instantly
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. I shouldn't have choked her after, though